I was happy the cloudy day forecasted instead turned warm and bright; days like this bring out the best in the camp's residents. I was also happy to share my day with a pediatrician and an Ob/Gyn. This meant the sick 1-month-olds had an expert to evaluate them, and the possible endometritis patients had a physician with an ultrasound machine and years of experience to make sure they were OK. I felt we were at the top of our game, practicing medicine almost like at home. Although I am sure I had done a good job treating the children when they came in sick, I knew I wasn't trained the same way pediatricians were and it had made me feel guilty.
One of the patients who had been moved to housing last week stopped in to the camp today, and I was surprised. "Why are you here?" I asked. "Didn't you get moved to an apartment?" She looked beautiful. Her curly hair was clean and styled, her makeup was perfect, and her clothes were fashionable. She smelled better too! She acknowledged she had moved out, but her 4-year-old son was very depressed and wanted to move back. All his friends were at camp and nobody spoke his language "outside." He did not remember a life other than this. She brought him back to play with his friends, and she felt guilty being here, like she was rubbing her friends' faces in it. She gave me a hug and said it would be OK soon. My heart ached for her.
Not only were the residents very active today, but I was happy to see many other NGOs at the camp. A Greek Department of Education representative was there making sure children were vaccinated so they could soon start school. Joy! The UNHRC was also there for interviews, but what really made me happy was CLOTHES!!!!! AND SHOES!!!!! All day an NGO was present near the military offices with shiny new clothes and shoes for the refugees - people - to take. I didn't see coats but I was told they were there. Seeing warm garments for my friends made me almost as happy as seeing them head off on a bus to semi-permanent housing; now we just need heaters for the warehouse so my friends won't die of the cold.
I was hoping to see my special friend and a few others before I left - I knew some of them were aware it was my last day. As physicians we are not supposed to go into the warehouse and tents unless we were with a translator on official doctor business, so I couldn't go seek them out. While I was quite busy in the afternoon seeing lots of muscle spasms and headaches and dental problems, I did notice that my special friend stayed to the periphery, shoulders down. She seemed sad, and wouldn't look me in the eye. Her mom came to say goodbye, but she would not; she was too sad I would not be there to see her everyday and make her feel special. My heart ached a little more.
Lastly, my friend who had said goodbye to her neighbor yesterday stopped to give me lots of hugs. She saw my Miraculous Medal of Mary necklace (thank you, Dorothy), my purple beaded cross bracelet (thank you, Carrie) and my worry ring (thank you, Erin). She said she would miss me and tried to give me her ring, which appeared to be her only piece of jewelry. I was so touched and we both teared up. I told her she would always be in my heart, and she hugged me again and again, saying thank you for coming all this way to take care of us, to see us and to know our life is real. After looking at my jewelry she seemed happy I believed in God, and told me when she had lived in Lebanon for 7 years she had lived in peace with her Christian, Muslim and Jewish neighbors. She knew we all believed in the same God, and told me she would pray for me. I couldn't believe that this woman, a refugee awaiting asylum, was going to pray for me. It's the things like this that have touched me so much, these unselfish, loving people who have lost so much but give so freely.
I told her I would pray for her too, and that I knew our God would keep her safe as he had on her long journey thus far. Then we embraced one last time, my heart aching some more, and I said goodbye.
For now.
| Our SAMS team on my last day, 22-Nov-2016 |
| My friend and her ring. Such a generous soul |
| The SAMS logo on the vest I wore on my medical mission. I was proud to be an ambassador for this amazing NGO |


